One of the most difficult tasks a human being faces when spiritually awakening to a higher state of consciousness, is love of self. Once it becomes clear that if they are to live out from a consciousness of ONEness, they must include the self and this often initiates a great deal of confusion, guilt, and remorse as they begin to remember actions taken in an earlier state of consciousness.
As the newly awakened student of truth begins to examine their past actions from a more evolved state of consciousness it often brings embarrassment, regret, and even a sense of self-loathing for words spoken and actions taken in the past
It is important to understand that actions always reflect one’s state of consciousness at the time. People often alienated those they thought they were “helping” in the ego based belief that they were showing them the “right” way (our way) of doing, living, or believing while often they were functioning as an enabler, or just being a self-righteous “know it all” .
Self loathing is the manifestation of separation energy, separation from
God, people, and all other life forms. Separation expresses in infinite forms of; “You will never be good enough”. This erroneous state of consciousness is experienced physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually by all living from three dimensional consciousness as well and by many who have awakened.
Self-love is the ability to acknowledge and accept the so called un-desirable parts of one’s self through realizing that past actions were a reflection of the state of consciousness one was at that time. The personal qualities you dislike in yourself are nothing more than the habits and programming of lifetimes lived in less evolved times and stored in cellular memory.
It is hardly surprising that so many despise themselves and silently suffer from the belief that they have somehow failed; not realizing that this is what the “earth school” is all about– discovering truth through the trials and errors experienced while living in the density of duality, separation, and external powers that control and dominate. Remember–These three dimensional concepts are not yours and never can become yours unless you claim them as being yours, even though they feel personal.
Everyone yearns to be accepted (loved) because Oneness is every person’s true nature. Mind interprets a person’s state of consciousness. For example-A suicide bomber feels the need to be accepted and honored, and believes he is performing a brave and righteous act. His innate desire to experience wholeness (acceptance and love) is being translated and is manifesting through his un-evolved and very third dimensional state of consciousness.
The law of attraction is oneness–like energy always seeking to align with the like energy of ONE. If you radiate a consciousness of self-loathing you will automatically draw to yourself experiences that support that energy. This is the secret that underlies bullying. If consciously or unconsciously someone projects “I am not worthy, I am not lovable, etc. etc.” the bully state of consciousness will be drawn to it, align with it, and honor the request.
Physical, emotional, mental, and even some religious practices of resistance, hate, condemnation, avoidance, and self-abuse can never bring a person into alignment with the wholeness he seeks because these three dimensional actions are based in the belief in being separate from what is already fully present within. These activities serve only strengthen a person’s alignment with expressions of separation.
An acceptance of self, warts and all, can only come through realizing that these things are not God ordained, maintained, or sustained but are simply three dimensional expressions of duality and separation. Once you stop feeding them with belief energy, they have nothing to hold them in place. When resistance is put aside, truth realized, and SELF is accepted there comes a sense of relief–a weight has been lifted and old energies needing attention no longer need to scream and act out in order to be recognized and cleared.
Start to see the qualities you do not like about yourself as the child part of you. The inner child desperately seeking to be acknowledged and loved, supported, and accepted as much as the “approved” parts.
There is only ONE Consciousness, Divine Consciousness, God, and it is the consciousness of every person but beliefs of duality, separation, and powers over have conditioned earth’s collective consciousness with an overlay of error. There has only ever been ONE omnipresent Divine consciousness, but in third dimensional energy the one Divine Consciousness individualized, is interpreted falsely and colored with error manifesting itself as… “There is no unexpressed consciousness”-Joel S. Goldsmith
If we cannot love ourselves, we will be incapable of loving others because we will have automatically eliminated ourselves from ONEness.
Duality/separation consciousness preaches loudly from the pulpit of appearances demanding that a person must do and believe what is presently believed to be the only “right way” . The time has come for every person to reclaim the innate spiritual power they have in ignorance given to–organized religions, government, experts, friends, family, the rich and famous, and anyone and anything touting that all must believe, say, or do as they do, or we will not be acceptable and worthy of love- Gods’ or another’s.
As you begin to honestly accept and love the whole package that is you, the judgmental, critical, angry, and fearful parts of your energy field begin to gradually dissolve and give way without effort or even conscious awareness. As a person’s energy field begins to align with the higher frequencies of love and action it begins to create the experiences of life from a new and higher level.
Whenever you feel yourself slipping into irritation, judgment, criticism, or some other negative habit regarding self or others, simply acknowledge it saying to your mind; “Oh, you again. No, we are not doing things that way anymore, we are living and seeing the world this way…” Then let it go, blessing the person or event that activated the old energy. You will soon find yourself quietly becoming the person you want to be.
Loving self is not difficult once it is realized and accepted that everyone (yes, even the rich, famous, and airbrushed) is on earth to learn and evolve through three dimensional experiences until at some point of evolution learning this hard way is no longer necessary and becomes easier because the person is now being taught from within. Accept that you were right where you were meant to be learning exactly what you were meant to learn when you acted and said things that may now cause you to feel guilt and regret.
The sky will not fall down because you have a bad habit nor will you be punished or be forced to go back to square one. Consciousness never devolves. Because of free will a person can keep it in a holding pattern or attempt to go back to an earlier state of consciousness but regardless, will always and can only manifest their present state of consciousness.
The dirt in a pail of water never becomes the water. What you see may look cloudy and dark, but the water never becomes the dirt. Evolution is the process of adding more and more clean water (Light and awareness) until eventually the water is clear. You don’t rant and rail at the dirt, you simply allow it to dissipate through the realization that cloudy water is in its true form, pure clear water
Remember this when three dimensional concepts and beliefs present themselves for acceptance or rejection. Stop accepting everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or smell as being reality and instead go within realizing;
I ALREADY AM, ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, AND ALWAYS WILL BE THE MANIFESTATION OF SOURCE, AND NOTHING OUTSIDE OF MYSELF CAN CHANGE THAT.
MCR 11-24-09 updated 9/25